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Hello my dear friends, I am alive! In all senses of the word, (on a serious note im doing quite well for those who understand) but im sorry I havent been around. How are you all? Please message me and note me and talk to me and stuffs. I've missed you, yes, you. Every single one of you. 

So, this can only be short and to the point cos its nearly 10pm and i have to be up at 6.30 for work. But, I now live in my own place, well, supported housing, with  a few rules, but I pay rent and have my own room, bathroom and kitchen. I work 4 days a week and train for one. My family arent around but Im getting on my feet. Im too tired to write much more but I now have (even though its snails pace) a form of internet connection!!!

Sleep well lovelies and talk to me soon

:heart: :hug: 
Her skin was pale as frost in the morning
Cold to the touch from the rain that was pouring
Covering her surface faded marks were entwined
A mess of spider webs discreetly designed

Her eyes were as dull as the clouded river bed
Misted by thoughts swimming through her head
As the fog clears they soon begin to gleam
But only to be shattered as the tears begin to stream

Her lips were as crimson as the first blooming rose
On the verge of revealing things that nobody knows
Budding with opportunity yet silenced by her guilt
And slowly over time her ideas they start to wilt

Her heart as erratic as the cold winter breeze
Injected with ice it soon began to freeze
Left alone is the shell of a girl you used to know
And now upon her grave roses begin to grow

Over the past several years of my life I have:

    ·        Survived 12 suicide attempts

    ·        Survived 18 months in the government care system

    ·        Survived 2 years of sexual abuse by a family member and then been called a liar

    ·        Survived a ketoacidosic coma

    ·        Survived being hit, cursed and yelled at

    ·        Survived being kept from my younger siblings

    ·        Survived being on antidepressants

    ·        Survived every burn, bruise and cut

    ·        Survived failing college

    ·        Survived falling in love and back out of love

    ·        Survived hating myself inside and out

    ·        Survived meeting a someone online at 14 who lied to me about who they were and raped me

    ·        Survived my parents’ divorce

    ·        Survived school and my 27 exams

    ·        Survived several terrifying interviews

    ·        Survived sleeping outside overnight in the cold

    ·        Survived the nights I wanted everything to end

    ·        Survived the pain of my dear friends death

    ·        Survived the shutdown of one of my organs my body’s own immune system attacked me

    ·        Survived the supposed ending of the world

At the end of 2014 I am looking back on everything my mind and body has endured over the past years of pain. I am a survivor and 2015 will be the year everything changes for me. I will be starting my nursery work placement 4 days a week alongside college 1 day a week to get my official qualification whilst earning and I will also be leaving home. I am not quite there yet. And I am still not okay. But I will be. And you will be too.

So its the 18th of December. 5 years ago I was rushed into hospital by my mum from my doctors surgery and admitted into ICU, my blood sugars were high, my ketone levels even more dangerously so, I had dropped so much weight you could see my ribs and was constantly attached to the tap. The next few days were spent with hourly obs, on the 7th floor of a childrens hospital watching the snow over the ocean, with everything feeling so surreal. I remember my first injection, I remember every injection since then. I remember the horror flowing through me as my doctor explained what was room and the dawning realization that it would never go away. Since then I done endless blood sugar finger prick tests, and gone from multiple daily injections, to wearing an insulin pump 24/7, but at the end of each day Im just another girl praying for a cure so she doesnt have to monitor her health daily and have her organs run on AAA batteries.

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Charly
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United Kingdom
Im here. Im living. Im fighting. My art is my therapy. ♥

Cuddle craver. Music maniac. Film fanatic. Art adorer. Serious studier. Pro Procrastinator. Soulmate seeker. Headphone hoarder. Laptop lover. Amazingly affectionate. Comfortably curvy. Incredibly imaginative. Secretly shy.
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Hello my dear friends, I am alive! In all senses of the word, (on a serious note im doing quite well for those who understand) but im sorry I havent been around. How are you all? Please message me and note me and talk to me and stuffs. I've missed you, yes, you. Every single one of you. 

So, this can only be short and to the point cos its nearly 10pm and i have to be up at 6.30 for work. But, I now live in my own place, well, supported housing, with  a few rules, but I pay rent and have my own room, bathroom and kitchen. I work 4 days a week and train for one. My family arent around but Im getting on my feet. Im too tired to write much more but I now have (even though its snails pace) a form of internet connection!!!

Sleep well lovelies and talk to me soon

:heart: :hug: 

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SheDares Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Just thought I'd drop by and leave a :tighthug: since I haven't heard from you in a while. Find myself wondering how you're getting on every so often ♡ x
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Kramttin Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you so much for the Fav, sweetie! :D
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Sweetwii044 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
no worries :)
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Kramttin Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
:heart:Kayla:heart:
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Sweetwii044 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Shhhhh :heart:
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LadyBitterblue Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I hope you're doing fine :heart:
Have a llama for some cuddles.
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Sweetwii044 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the llama and the cuddles :D :heart: 
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LadyBitterblue Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
my pleasure! :heart:
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WhiteHeartFlame Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:iconmoesmileplz: :iconfaveplz:
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DenVitaNarren Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014
Thanks for the fave! :D
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